Ennui the 8th, I am, I am....

Damn it. I did it again.

I've let far too much time lapse between blog entries and my movie watching has largely been shot down the tubes for the moment. There's a lot of things that have ensued in the past month to distract, starting with vacation in WY over July 4th (which I wish had never ended), some legal problems (which I wish had never started), and thoughtful meditation on the course that my life is taking.

Okay maybe not meditation per se, but I've had some of the muddy ocean floor of my life roiled up of late in the form of the aforementioned legal problems, which shall remain undetailed until it's over. While those problems may be short-lived, I realized that I really do have some unresolved issues from that period of my life, both emotional and financial. It was a relatively chaotic few years, when I was up and down and all around. That's the college life, I suppose, but I think missed most of the good stuff in there.

My brother and I were talking last night, as we usually do on Sunday nights (either between or after football games on TV during the season -- starting soon!), and he made a comment that struck home. It was said in half-joking tones, but the truth was he was right. I just wish I knew what to do with that.

Think of it this way. There's this movie coming out called The 40-Year-Old Virgin, starring Steve Carrell from Comedy Central's The Daily Show. If you've seen the trailers for it, you've got a really good glimpse of some facets of my own life. I can kind of relate to his character and I look forward to seeing the film for a good laugh, if nothing else.

Who am I? Why am I here? Is there really a definitive answer to these questions? Are some of us doomed to wander the proverbial wastelands for all time, searching for some sliver of meaning?! Maybe so... but I hope I'm not one of those.